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30 Day Grey's Anatomy Challenge: Saddest Death George O'Malley's 007 George O'Malley's death was sad for so many reasons. The first being that he deserved something so much more. His disappearance of the episode did seem to sudden for me. And the extra sadness was he used one of his most embarrassing moments as an identifier of who he was. So sad. I cried a lot when he went. Check out the previous 30 Day Grey's Anatomy Challenge entries: Day 24 Day 23  -  Day 22  -  Day 21  -  Day 20  -  Day 19  -  Day 18 Day 17  -  Day 16  -  Day 15  -  Day 14  -  Day 13  -  Day 12 Day 11  -  Day 10  -  Day 9  -  Day 8  -  Day 7  -  Day 6 Day 5  -  Day 4  -  Day 3  -  Day 2  -  Day 1  -  30 Day Grey's Anatomy Challenge

30 Day Grey's Anatomy Challenge: A Scene That Made You Cry He's Gone - Cristina Yang finds Burke has left for good. How can anyone expect me to not cry when Cristina Yang breaks down? The beauty of this scene shows for one of the first times that the love and need for each other is reciprocated from Cristina to Meredith, and it's truly heartbreaking to see her mix of emotions as she breaks down.  Check out the previous 30 Day Grey's Anatomy Challenge entries: Day 18 Day 17  -  Day 16  -  Day 15  -  Day 14  -  Day 13  -  Day 12 Day 11  -  Day 10  -  Day 9  -  Day 8  -  Day 7  -  Day 6 Day 5  -  Day 4  -  Day 3  -  Day 2  -  Day 1  -  30 Day Grey's Anatomy Challenge

I'm fed up of being this pathetic excuse for a human being. I'm sick of not being able to deal with the issues at hand. I'm tired of trying to be strong and failing in everything I do. I'm annoyed that I can't get over everything that's happened because I can't deal with it all. I don't want to keep feeling like this and not being able to hide it. I want to at least be distracted.

So next week is the week of filming our 16mm drama project that I am producing. I've been very busy the last couple of weeks sorting it out and I've still got so much more to do! To be honest though because of everything that's been going on I'm proud of anything I get done. We've seen the location which is perfect, it's St. Michaels Community Centre in Salisbury. We've got our two actors, the paperwork is getting done, so it's all slowly piecing together!  I went home this weekend to get my car but I wasn't back for long which is a shame. I really miss my famalam and needed them. Especially my dogs, they're unconditional love is something I need at a time like this. I wish I could've stayed there for longer but not only did I have to return back to get loads of work done, but I also can't just run back home when things get tough. But yeah, that's my life so far, all just work related. I'm resigning from BHS because ...

So me, Melissa, Jolly and Yazi were walking around the Willink Road when we caught up with a sweaty Sean who was in his gym clothes, we say Hi and walk on, he tells us he's going to the gym and I tell him we are too. The new block at Willink has become the Chapel from halls, and I begin to walk up to it, before collapsing to the ground making my knees bleed, and as my face falls to the floor, I crack my teeth. Everyone rushes to see if I'm okay, I begin to laugh as blood pours out of my mouth. I then suddenly stop, and start crying, to which point I completely collapse. I wake up a day later in hospital, with Sean telling me all that happened.

This pretty much sums up how I feel right now.

There's so much I need to get off my chest I don't know where to start. I'm so lonely at the moment which is really stupid. My friends are so freaking awesome , ( and I am so lucky because I'm a shit friend ) especially Jolly and Anna this weekend, even though they should be spending time together. But that doesn't make me feel better, it makes me feel guilty. I've most definitely enjoyed spending time with them this weekend but feel so bad for it. I'm also finding myself thinking about one person constantly, and I know it's not gonna happen . I try not thinking about it all because I'm so shit at letting people know how I feel, not that it would matter if I did, I'd never be liked back. I just wanna forget everything and move on. I get butterflies, and I smile just thinking about them. And it feels so perfect because my feelings were so unexpected. My heart literally skips a beat when I know you've thought about me, and I know that when w...

A scene of any Pixar movie you have cried with. Actually one of the most beautifully made emotional scenes in film. I cried just having to watch it before putting it on here!! Favorite “A bugs life story” scene. Favorite “The incredibles” character. Favorite thing about “Wall-e” Favorite “Cars” scene. Favorite character from “Ratatouille” Favorite scene from “Monsters Inc” Favorite character from “A bugs life” Do you ejoy Disney-Pixar movies? Why? Do the movies teach you something; what? The movie that has make you cry almost all the time you have watched it. Will you continue watching Disney-Pixar movies even if you get old? What do this movies mean to do? A draw of you favorite Disney-Pixar character. Another song from your favorite Disney-Pixar movies soundtack

I'm having the worst time at the moment. There's so many reasons why I am so unhappy. I don't want to let them out because I don't want anyone to A) worry or B) think I'm being stupid. Plus, I just recently found there was one person I could speak to about anything, and not worry about what they thought...But she dumped me. It was hard enough telling her anything because I don't like people knowing things about me. It makes me feel more vulnerable, and I already know the false words that anyone will say. So I've locked myself in my room and I'm not talking to anyone, whilst listening to sad music. I'm fed up of being the douche bag that ruins everyone's moods. I'd much rather them forget about me and have a good weekend, and I can cry 15 hours of the day in solitude without making them worry about me. I care about my friends more than I care about me and I don't want to be the one bringing worry or sadness in their lives. I ha...