#YellowChocolate

As has been the general theme of my vapid last few posts, here I am, looking to blog again, to see if it will do any good. Lets start with an update based on the big milestones I kept missing in my previous posts. It is five years since my previous post, where I was a very naive 25 year old. Yes, I'm in my thirties now. Maturing like a fine wine I hope, but more likely like a piece of cheddar that dropped under the fridge. Back then I was 'still' living at home. I did not know back then that it would be another five years. Last year however, in May I bought my own home. Yes that's right, I'm a homeowner. The years of saving paid off.  I escaped the bully from the old marketing company and after a brief time working in Oxford, I have settled into a SaaS company where the last three years have blown by. I chop and change as to whether there is the right level of opportunity for me there, but I have a good support network there and I am doing something I enjoy; Contin...

I lied, I lied, I li-i-ied. I should have suspected I would struggle to blog 2 days in a row. So lets use this first blog to update on where I am in life right now. Past the quarter century mark and still living at home, I work for a marketing company in an Operations department. It was going along swimmingly until my new manager started bullying me. In the love department, I began a relationship in June of last year that ended by May this year. Still, it was the longest relationship I'd had and I was completely and utterly in love. It's a shame alcohol and prescription drugs were more important to him. And yes, it was a him. My bisexuality has not been cured or completed. So back to being single, in desperate need of a new job and a home of my own. I guess we could say I have the world at my feet. It's a shame that the depression is still so severely attacking my mind. It's still there, counselling begins next week.

This is probably the first post in a good long while that's actually had anything to do with the story that is my life. So here's a few updates, if anyone cares! Firstly, one of the more exciting things is that my best friend Abbie is getting married next year. Something that I am incredibly honoured to be a part of, as I have been asked to be her best man! Unusual, we know, for a man to effectively be the maid of honour, but it's a true sign of just how our friendship is together. Ever since college Abbie has always been such a great friend and even through university, being 50 miles away that friendship didn't waver. Now we're growing up, apparently, and I am so proud of her, and wish her all the best in married life.  Abbie & I recently had a night out, in which I finally told her face to face that I am bisexual. Something that has become so normal for me now, a big step from 2 years ago, but something that I had never told her. For some reason, lik...

Lateness to work shall cease forever more. I love my job, but there is one or two, (and read one or two as one) people that shouldn't be there. Cannot say anymore than that, at least not on the internet. I can't wait for my meal with my boss to discuss such things. I got more organisation done today, a folder for what I'm in charge of with goals and everything, literally just too cool for school. Plan for the weekend: Wii Fit, Tidy Room, Write some Jack Union, and get going on my 1001 things to do before I die. That last thing too is to try and watch a film! One more thing, find a co-producer & co-director, possibly the same person! Now, Sherlock last night was brilliant. I though the whole reuniting storyline was a little bit annoying and pointless, but the tantalising theories of how Sherlock survived without never truly revealing it was brilliant television and the bomb sequence was dramatic and comedic! Looking forward to going back to Salisbury ...

God Damn It! I was 45 minutes late to work today, all because my alarm didn't go off on my iPad. How frustrating. It's happened a good few times in the holidays, got to sort it out. I'm so lucky I have such a good job like I do. One where they don't get angry for silly mistakes like lateness, and constantly praise you on a job well done. I love loving my job. Operations Executive TID. After a frustrating shop the other day where I couldn't find any decent shoes my size (13! Yes, they're big!) My shoes finally arrived today, so am excited to wear them tomorrow. And now I'm on to catching up on BBC iPlayer. Was ever so surprised at how good New Years EastEnders was. Since Dominic Treadwell-Collins has taken over as executive producer, there has been a vast improvement in the show. Their aim to be the best drama in the country seems to be succeeding, with better story-lines, improved acting, a great cast and a fresh few ideas in improving the cinemati...

So I've got my spreadsheet ready to track my progress of my new years resolutions, I want to succeed in all of them! I'll try and keep up my progress on my blog but I can't make any guarantees! Anyone who regularly reads this will know they can't read it regularly with my awful schedule. However, today I'm going to focus on getting my bucket list going! Once I've finished putting the Christmas decorations down and getting ready for the family to come over. Then tomorrow it'll be good to get back to work at Catalina Marketing UK. Still loving my job, and loving looking forward to my job. Also, my plan for this week is to come up with a five year plan. I really do need to think about the future and what steps I need to take to get there. It's time to say goodbye to old flings, previous thoughts and old experiences, and start thinking about the NEW. All this after watching a couple of episodes of Glee obviously. TizRheaD

Once again I have been neglecting my blog, so I'm trying my hardest to get back on track! The main reason is because I am now with job as an operations executive at a marketing company. The work has been brilliant so far and I am really enjoying it. Christmas is coming up and I'm still a pauper, even after getting paid. I have just realised how I cannot live by paying the rent I'm paying and somehow getting Christmas Presents, and my counterpart license ordered, and still somehow live and breathe! More updates soon! Sleepy now.

General update on my jobhunting difficulties!! Had 2 interviews but narrowly missed out on both! The Job hunt continues!

So here's my life as it goes right now. I am extremely angry and crashing because select people not understanding that my being nice has no intentions. As soon as I find out a guy is straight, I back off. Anything after that is just being friendly, nothing expected, nothing wanted. And that's not the only time my niceness is misunderstood. Just because I'm nice to you and flirty, doesn't mean anything is going to happen. Yes, these two extremes are both happening and its pissing me off. I am fed up of being nice, but I just like to help people and I don't like seeing anyone down, upset, or alone when they don't want to be. But anyways, other things pissing me off are my speeding ticket, money, and not getting paid at work. Losing friends and finding out secrets about those who you never knew had let you down, and much more. Will things ever get better? On another note, please keep checking out, liking, sharing and donating to my latest film pro...

Back to work today, and it was bloody hot! No air conditions when it was like 30 degrees :/ Not nice at all! Plus I was on floor which was mega gay! It was nice to see some of the crew though! Even if a couple of them are leaving already! Yesterday was manic! Packing and getting back to Reading, then looking after the cousins, and going round their house. They CRAZY! i've got so much to get done and it's driving me crazy! So much going on, stressing me out.