#YellowChocolate

This is probably the first post in a good long while that's actually had anything to do with the story that is my life. So here's a few updates, if anyone cares! Firstly, one of the more exciting things is that my best friend Abbie is getting married next year. Something that I am incredibly honoured to be a part of, as I have been asked to be her best man! Unusual, we know, for a man to effectively be the maid of honour, but it's a true sign of just how our friendship is together. Ever since college Abbie has always been such a great friend and even through university, being 50 miles away that friendship didn't waver. Now we're growing up, apparently, and I am so proud of her, and wish her all the best in married life.  Abbie & I recently had a night out, in which I finally told her face to face that I am bisexual. Something that has become so normal for me now, a big step from 2 years ago, but something that I had never told her. For some reason, lik...

So here's my life as it goes right now. I am extremely angry and crashing because select people not understanding that my being nice has no intentions. As soon as I find out a guy is straight, I back off. Anything after that is just being friendly, nothing expected, nothing wanted. And that's not the only time my niceness is misunderstood. Just because I'm nice to you and flirty, doesn't mean anything is going to happen. Yes, these two extremes are both happening and its pissing me off. I am fed up of being nice, but I just like to help people and I don't like seeing anyone down, upset, or alone when they don't want to be. But anyways, other things pissing me off are my speeding ticket, money, and not getting paid at work. Losing friends and finding out secrets about those who you never knew had let you down, and much more. Will things ever get better? On another note, please keep checking out, liking, sharing and donating to my latest film pro...

Ok, here's a point of view of mine that I really do want to press on people. Because I think it's the one thing at university which I think causes people to miss out on great opportunities and fun times. And that is decisions to not be friends or not be nice to someone. Now I'm sure I have done it myself and it is something I am working on in changing. But it just doesn't make sense. The amount of times people are just blunt, not nice, or ignorant just because they don't know someone that well is fucking rude.  I'm not saying that everyone has to be friends with everyone. And I'm definitely not saying that I am. But I'm the kind of person who is open to getting along with anyone and everyone. It doesn't mean I want to replace my previous and closer friends with you, or spend all of my time with you, it just means that I'm not going to not be friendly just because I don't know you very well, or because I'm not in your little frie...

So, A Hogwarts Christmas was a complete success, and I had a good day for the first time in God knows how long, and it was genuine. The Christmas dinner was delicious and the present giving was great fun. It was really nice to actually be able to smile for once. I put in so much effort for that day and it paid off, but I wasn't the person who put the most effort in I believe. But now we come to today. This week has been a bloody difficult week to get through. I haven't been to work this weekend after feeling awful. I haven't been able to do any work, and it's been a great big deal just actually being able to get out of bed. It took so much effort to get up, and shower yesterday, and then I even managed to clean some of the house. Nicholas Jolly has been the best friend through this week, and I really am grateful. Things did perk up with Beth came over last night but I crashed significantly after she left. My Sister Dani's coming over for the next couple of...

So, today has been a rather odd day. We had a successful day filming, in particular a time lapse of Salisbury Town Centre. I'm really proud of the camera work I have performed because I've been able to do it all myself, and it really looks quite good! Me and Beth have worked well together as a director/camera team! I then put up the Christmas Decorations in the flat with Melissa, Jolly & Leanne. It was really nice to make the place look festive and also spend time with Leanne who I haven't really hung out with much the past week or so. Then we decided to set of our Chinese Lanterns. I was really looking forward to these as I wanted them to mean something. I was debating on whether to put a message or a bad though on them so that they could raise into the air and the message could burn away, but I thought of it more symbolically instead. I'd have a bit of a downer before we decorated so this was a kind of, yeah, stupid thing. Anyway, neither of my lante...

I love this scene so much!

Me and Leanne are finally going through the new Doctor Who series' from the start :D It's crazy just how much you can tell the budget and production value has risen since the beginning! The first episode, Rose, looks like some sort of student film! I've been finding myself spending a lot more time with more people than before, and I think its good to have all these great friends around. It's actually really nice to have so many different people and personalities to spend time with :D and can find people to suit the mood I'm in if that makes sense. Yesterday was really nice to spend time with the B kitch crew, The G crew, Melissa, Jolly/Anna and the D Kitch, Sara, and still have a laugh with Beth and Jack. Especially when I hadn't seen most of them for a while because of the half term. I've started to just get over my essay results and now I'm determined to do better next time, and show Andy wrong, because to be honest, his spoken English isn't as...

This is what I've been working on today, a illustrator drawing of me, Melissa, Jolly and Beth. These are three of the coolest people I've ever met and make university amazing. 'nuff said really.