Freshers, Filming and Flying. Along with Downton's drama

The last couple of weeks mixing my life between freshers and getting my life on track has been quite unusual. 

I returned to Salisbury to see Cynthea and make sure she was okay and told myself not to bother with any of the freshers, but then so many of them were so nice. There is a clear divide between them and there are a few that need a punch in the face but on the whole a really good group of people. Some of us genuinely didn't want me to leave! It'll be nice to return within the next few days. 

Most of them managed to see me absolutely drunk off my face. Cynthea has decided to leave, and on her goodbye night I did not realise just how affected I would be by it. I drank myself silly, made a fool of myself on the phone, and said some foolish things. I can't go too much into detail.

But there's one thing that is making me want to drink silly still. A person very important to me is clearly going through something and they don't seem to be releasing it. I appear to be closer to them than they are to me, sometimes. It's so complicated. Anyway, I don't think they're talking to anyone about it and it worries me. It's constantly on my mind. I don't know, I seem to be making the situation even more difficult as I go along and it's so difficult to tell what's going on, or not going on, or what's in my head, to what they're intentions are, to what are clearly either mixed signals, brutal harshness or genuine attraction.

But back to Reading means back to reality. Have had a great meeting with a recruitment agency who have been ever so good, got me some brilliant opportunities, including two interviews today. One went awful, and the other I didn't realise how passionate I'd be for it until I got into the interview. Thursday saw me being trained for a fast food restaurant, but I may not even do a shift there if opportunity arises.

This week is even busier with my return to Salisbury to return back to Hook to do so corporate film work for a large global automotive company. I'm so excited for the opportunity even if my head is frazzled from that, fast food and interviews. My meeting them was a great opportunity and we're ever so excited. 

So last night was Downton. Wow... Such a powerful storyline introduced and by God was it performed extremely well by Joanne Froggatt. The scenes made me feel sick with the way they left it to the imagination with the awful screams and the one horrifying attack by Nigel Harman, who also did a great job of acting the scenes out, blending the kindness and approachability he began with to the cruel, ruthless, selfish man that he becomes by the end. But Joanna as Anna really does need all the praise. It stopped becoming drama by the end and felt like real life. I just wanted to help her so much. I did however, although understanding the reason for it, dislike the sudden jealousy in Bates, he's never seemed like the insecure character and Anna has never given him reason to be so. Myanna Buring, although obviously a talented actress, is really getting on my nerves as Edna Braithwaite, so I guess she's doing her job. Her advances on Tom Branson is angering, but I do feel the story a little weak and predictable. Predominantly she seams to be a like-for-like replacement for O'Brien, but with added sluttiness. 

Upstairs, Robert was slightly less annoying this week. Losing money again is just typical, but it was great to see him finally warm to Edith's bit on the side Michael Gregson, who's romance is enthralling and definitely needed to fill the gaping hole that was Mary/Matthew and Sybil/Branson. It's a shame that Mary's focus is purely on a suitor without more about her connection with her new son, but the emotions of the gramophone being used was delightful. Mary is clearly changing back to series 1 Mary, and she, like us, are not liking this.  Maggie Smith once again hit the one liners as per usual, but Molesly was the funniest this week, his quip when it came to Snap was brilliant!  

Downstairs, Mrs Patmore's storyline is a great start for Alfred's aspirations as a cook to kickstart. Thomas Barrow seemed to be rather pointless this episode, again. Something tells me that something will come up soon, otherwise he'll spend the whole fourth series just being there because he's a great actor, get him a boyfriend. I'm hoping Jimmy gets a better storyline soon too as the love square between him, Alfred, Daisy and Ivy feels a little forced. His hand injury was his most exciting scene this week and that was hardly great. 

• My car seriously needs sorting out!
• Drains are fixed
• Heroes does go wayward.