#YellowChocolate

Documentary is finally being filmed, after many problems and a lot of time. It's not the original idea but we've had to do something which will actually get done. However, disaster #1: We spent nearly 2 hours getting the equipment booked out and we couldn't even film today because our interviewee went AWOL. Which is not what we need when our deadline is in 2 weeks. Dinner tonight is going to be disaster #2. I had to use a bread mix and it is just going to be awful and I can't even bare to look at the oven now... I've got more stuff to sort out for the solicitors sorting out my car accident. I've written my first draft of the case study, but disaster #3 it's too long, and I don't know what to cut out. Disaster #4 After a couple of days of feeling reasonably okay considering my situation, things are crashing around me, and it's not a good feeling. I'm about ready to break down. Disaster #5 I can't break down know other people will kn...

So here's a little update on my life right now, My university work is becoming quite hectic at the moment with various deadlines within the next couple of weeks, including my script, case study, research methods and documentary. 2 of Which haven't even left the starting blocks. My script however, seems to have turned out pretty good and my case study has a lot of potential. I've had to have another day off of work from being sick today, which has kinda pissed me off because next month I'm going to be ridiculously poor. However, the job is also taking it's toll. Christmas is coming up and presents are almost complete, cards are written and ready to be sent off when it becomes an acceptable time to send them off. The presents need to be wrapped, and some need to arrive...Thanks a bunch Amazon, Snapfish and Play.com, you're useless sometimes. I'm starting to blame the useless post office instead though.  Feeling as low as ever but things are i...

day 25 - a song that makes you laugh I think this is probably the best time to blog about this, because there is one song that has been keeping me going through the last couple of weeks, it's hilarious. I know I've posted this before but watch it again MOFOS! day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Sometimes I get the horrible thought of 'what if there is no way to solve this?' Feeling tired and drained of putting on the smiles.  Problem is, I'm too self aware.   I know what I can and can't say, what I should or shouldn't do, what I have to to be. Wallow Bitch wallow, just like you deserve. Mutterings of a man potentially going insane. A man who possibly deserves all of this... At least it's a Sunday, White Rooms next door will not be open. Good night's sleep when I shut my mind off.

I much prefer not having my glasses...Even if it means I can't see on a night out!

Okay, so here's a snippet of what's good and bad in my life: - I went to the gym today which was good :) but I couldn't do anything with my arms because it hurt too much :/ - I've got my Industry Case Study sorted, but I'm having to get the train because of the car crash writing off my car. - I cleaned the house, but it'll be messy by morning - I handed my Stateless script in, but it probably won't get chosen - I need money, but I lost a weekend of work because of my shoulder.

Funniest video I've seen on youtube in a long time. Well, since RB's Friday!

It's really good to hear your voice, say my name! It sounds so sweet...

I went out last night... It was a little bit crazy! Pre-drinks at Hogwarts got me drunk within a few minutes of family guy...Then I had a bit of a downer...Thanks a bunch... Pre-Drinks round Ram's and I made a fool of myself of course, Almost had to try and get away because of the downer, but managed to drink enough to cheer me up! The Ring of Fire helped! Spirit was as shit as usual but I still managed to have fun. Voodoo was cool, but I felt myself running a lot...I got the moves like Jagger... oh... Sidekick + Dandelion & Burdock = LIFE

Okay, little update on my life! Had a car crash the other day because some women decided to run a red light... My car is probably going to be written off, but luckily I'm okay, apart from the whiplash! And the last two days I've been dressing up as a clown! Melissa's photo shoot of toys by day and night had been ridiculously fun! Going to go out for a moustache party tonight! And I really need to sort out my case study...

That is all...

Got mashed again last night. Crazy crazy night. Still don't know what to make of it. Still not feeling productive...Why do I bother? I don't like Strawberries & Cream Sidekick...

day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral I think the constant funeral song would have to be 'I'm Not Dead' from P!nk, I considered Kool & The Gang's 'celebrations' but I prefer P!nk's song! I just generally think it would be Lolz. day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

So I dressed up twice yesterday. Once for Sian's photography project where I had to be a monkey around town and another for the Halloween party. Now the bloody blood won't come off of my face... You'd think that last night, considering we went out and dressed up it'd be fun... It wasn't. Sick of this shit.