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30 Day Music Challenge - A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty

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day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty Black Eyed Peas - Boom Boom Pow... For reasons I don't wish to discuss, but it makes me feel guilty... Doi... day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Existing, not living

What is the point in my existence then? What is the point? Am I supposed to be here to do the devil’s work. Am I the Devil’s advocate? It would explain so much, why I bring so much pain and suffering into the world. I’m cruel to people in the most shallow of ways, and I do it with a vile laugh. I become involved in people’s lives and then just when things are going right, I ruin it. I persuade people that I am right when the right thing to do isn’t necessarily the best thing to do. And even in saying all this, I’m probably making things worse. I need understanding and more acceptance than I could possibly ever receive to feel better. I know I’m a horrible person and I deserve this. It’s been drummed into me that the real me is not a good person, and even though that was done for the wrong reasons, I’m starting to see how it could actually be beneficial to change. Although that is impossible, how can you change who you are?

Hometime

I got to go home on Mothers day weekend and it was so nice to catch up with the family and the dogs! I miss them all so much, and can't wait till Easter when I can see them again!

Arp Attack - Follow The Rhythm

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This is the band Arp Attack that we filmed our music video for. This is them performing at T in the park on the BBC introducing stage. They're a really fantastic band with a wonderful attitude and amazing people! I've never had so much fun filming!

A Little Positivity.

I'm going to document this little ray of sunshine before it goes, so I can look back at it and hopefully help me. Having family and friends that love me is what gets me through these times. Most people I have around me are amazing and have helped me more than I think most of them realise. Now just got to work on getting better.