What Is My Life?

This is probably the first post in a good long while that's actually had anything to do with the story that is my life. So here's a few updates, if anyone cares!

Firstly, one of the more exciting things is that my best friend Abbie is getting married next year. Something that I am incredibly honoured to be a part of, as I have been asked to be her best man! Unusual, we know, for a man to effectively be the maid of honour, but it's a true sign of just how our friendship is together. Ever since college Abbie has always been such a great friend and even through university, being 50 miles away that friendship didn't waver. Now we're growing up, apparently, and I am so proud of her, and wish her all the best in married life. 

Abbie & I recently had a night out, in which I finally told her face to face that I am bisexual. Something that has become so normal for me now, a big step from 2 years ago, but something that I had never told her. For some reason, like everyone close to me I was worried of not what they thought of my sexuality, if they had a problem with they I would find a polite way of telling them to fuck off (without actually finding a polite way), but more of the fact that it is something I have hidden and lied about for the last few years. As a great friend, she obviously was kind and supportive, and the very idea of it affecting our friendship is laughable.

And speaking of relationships, yes I am still single, but at the moment happy for it. What with such a palava of last year, going back and forth, games being played etc. I can't believe the focus of my life it was, and how much it took over me. I still think about it at least daily, but by far with less emotion, and not foolish hope. I'm happy to just focus on myself, my job, and getting some money in. The sooner I am out of my overdraft & the family are debt free the better!

My job is still incredible. I work for a marketing company and with some perfect people. Today I performed two presentations, my first for the company, and they went extremely well. Over the next two weeks we're going to be working incredibly hard on not only our normal work, but a few charity events and activities! One of which is an opportunity to throw wet sponges at the bosses. The company have a great work hard, play harder vibe, such as the photo above of the company event in December. I recently applied for another role within the company for another department, a more creative, more social role, but unfortunately lost out. But considering I've only been there 5 months, I am more than happy to continue to learn in my role.

But Alas, not everything is great. By all means gone are the days of posting unhappy imagery to express my feelings with but a number for the title. This doesn't mean that life is funky dory. I have a car that constantly breaks, although I have had fantastic help from my sisters boyfriend, and I'm not seeing any of my friends anywhere near as much as I should be. Nick, Lucy (my bro), Jordan, Sara, Sian, Livi…I could name hundreds of people I miss and probably should be talking to more, but alas it's not happening. Though none more than Anisha do I miss. And then there's the little situation of a court case over a speeding fine on Wednesday, it'll be great to get that over and done with to continue focusing on the positive. Plus, I'm getting fat. I need to exercise, particularly as I'm planning a triathlon soon!

And finally, perhaps the most important, is the incredibly success of being of my anti-depressants for over 3 months! Yes it's been hard, and yes there's been moments where things have been low. But I've been determined to work through them without the use of drugs. It's all in the mind (but it's not something you can prevent) and it's difficult to control, but I've done it. Still staying strong.

That's my life in a nutshell.