#YellowChocolate

The last few days, regardless of my feelings, have had a positive rise. Things have finally launched with Sophie, the promo filming went good, and my trust issues are slowly but surely, not ruining everything. Yes I have felt down a lot over the last few days, but overall, things have been good. The weather has been great and I even got a bit of a tan the other day. Depending on how I feel later, I may do my work outside in this nice weather.

So, I've been 21 for a week now, and after a grand birthday where I got ridiculously spoilt, as per usual, I've actually found this week has overall been a good week. Thursday was my birthday party, which was crazy! I was dressed up as a mad hatter (see picture above) I loved my costume and had a really good night. And I think I may have sorted things with Sophie, and she's coming over on Tuesday :) I am excited. So yeah, things have been positive this week, I've got some things off my chest that I thought would weigh me down for a long time, and now I am relieved. Time to keep moving forward, and not looking back. The only negative of the week has been the palava of getting my promo project sorted, but we have the teddy bears etc, and now we are filming tomorrow! I hope it goes well!!

Ah, I'm turning 21 tomorrow, scary stuff. And tbh, I'm really not looking forward to it. I don't really want to celebrate that I've survived another year, and there are so many things I wanted to do before I turned 21 and now it's too late. I don't really want the attention around me tomorrow, which is a first. And I don't want to see more cake because I've gotten fat and I'll only eat it all. I don't want to seem ungrateful or spoilt or anything though, because I really am grateful for everything being done for me. I'm just a bit of a twat really.

So, last night was another crazy night out with mental shenanigans. Can't remember half of it again, and I think that's a good thing. People wound me up in a major way, and I think I'm going to have to knock some sense into them.